It was the perfect metaphor for what I had been through. A solid year of discrimination, abuse, and sabotage resulting in a 360 degree in the way I not only viewed my life but also the way I lived my life.
I had firmly believed that living in my small, but perfectly suited for me home, with blinds drawn day and night was to ward off the sweltering heat in south Florida but, in reality, the crystal rainbows on my ceiling illustrated to me that I was at the beginning of my new life; a life I was meant to live and one which was lost due to trauma.
The cocoon I had lived in for two and a half months began to feel isolating and a bit stifling. Sure, the closed blinds kept my a/c happy and me even happier with a reasonable electric bill but not being able to look out the window to see the sunshine or palm fronds gently swaying in a summer breeze was getting old. I needed to be living again. I needed to be free of the trauma.
As I sat on my sofa early one Saturday morning (grateful that I no longer felt the depression of knowing I had to return to work in a couple of days) I looked up and saw them. The rainbows created by the early morning light streaming through open blinds and then through the crystals that hung in my window were like stars in a night sky in northern Vermont, clear and massive in their quantity.
It was then that I realized that I was on a new journey, one that encompassed not only my physical being but my emotional and spiritual one as well. I was free.
It’s difficult when we’re going through a traumatic event to see the small, wonderful things which add to the fabric of our lives and that’s because we’re fighting for our lives either literally or figuratively. But the truth is that these small and wonderful things are indeed there, we just have to stop for a moment, step outside our trauma, and notice them. Is that easy? Absolutely not. Is it necessary for our survival? Yes. The thing is we have to take a breath when we see them, acknowledge them (to whatever degree we’re able at the time) and bond them in our memory.
For me, the profundity of seeing the rainbows at this particular time was exactly what I needed exactly when I needed it because it gave me hope. What had previously been a glimmer was now a full-fledged ray. Symbolically it signified a win for me. I may have had this traumatic and painful episode inflicted on me, but I was the one who succeeded to move forward with my life in a manner that was - kind, heroic, and proud.
And, at the end of the day, at the end of a life, that’s all that matters – kind acts which are heroic in nature and ones that we can be proud of whether for ourselves or for our world on a larger scale.
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© Diana Taylor, Peaceful Energy Healing, Diana Taylor/Jackson Dunes Photography
I assist people in rising from despair and depression caused by workplace abuse, guiding them towards healing and a sense of peacefulness. I achieve this through the ancient practices of vibrational sound, spiritual counseling and practical life wisdom. It will be okay because together we’ll make it okay.
Photo credit: © Diana Taylor
Alt text: Crystal rainbows against a dark gray background.
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